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The only thing you'll be sorry in the future is to do things without a purpose. Be rich, not only on numbers but focus more on experiences. Be strong, to know that failures are the keys to success. Be kind, it's our responsibility to build a better world. Be thankful, and you'll find happiness in little things. Greater things are waiting ahead, all you need is to believe, look forward and stay positive.

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I don't think its like a blog post like I usually did, but maybe more to an explaination to someone or a group of people who waiting for me to give such an explaination. 
honestly, I am NOT going to go one by one to explain my action and my wrongs or anything I've done so far. 

tried to recalled when I was at Form 4, I told em I wanted to go to another school after PMR and I feel like I was not belong there anymore. I mean, I can't fit in the new environment, new retarded (some) classmate and all new. it just was a starter to my pain for 2 years struggles to finish my school day. and what I got? 
they blackmailed me but in such a friendly ways, that they will never "anggap" me as their friend anymore, begged me not to go and bla bla..... 

and, I took a fucking decision, I canceled everything..... :'( fuck me

and so, I went to through thick and thin by myself. and yeah, I have a few friends that always had a shoulder for me. Thank you very much. that's all what I can say....
I can't say anything, I was bullied mentally and I was in despair.... 

it was me, 2 years ago. 

okay, I took decision to resigned from my position. and what I feel? HAPPY. 
I also confuse and I don't know, should I let myself down just for making someone Happy while me , unhappy and feel like dying? I told em, I was not happy, tensed-up and even told em, I want to go find another place that I can work happily without feeling all this uneasy feels. and they keep pushed me and blown my mind that there no more such a perfect place to go or i can't survive la and even want to delete me from
their friend request. WHAT THE SHIT. 
and what I did, I still with my heart and my plan and this time, I really did. 
I took a week holiday. okay maybe more than a week and I continue working at another place but lmao, that place was just not far from my previous workplace. okay I admit, this step is my fault. 

but, whatever is that, I'm happy and okay so far. 
I hope it will last longer, insyaAllah ..... :) 

For sure, 

I'll no more feeling like I don't want to wake up from my bed. yeah, kind of that. 

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